Still haven't made it back to roller derby training due to this stupid knee...and that's dragged me lower than I've been in a very long time.
I got to a point where I was seriously considering jacking it in. The league is getting exciting here in Belfast, minimum testing continues and now we have heard there will be an extra practice during the week for those who have passed. That one thing just sent my brain into meltdown...I'm behind everyone, I won't be able to practice with the girls and I'll never ever catch up... I still feel like that. But I'm doing my best to ignore the niggling (overwhelming actually) doubts.
Today I managed to walk to work. Yes my knee is twingey, but I'm tired of not being able to walk...I LIKE walking. And if I can walk I can skate...gently at least. So the plan for this week is outdoor skating and some gym seasons!
The last week has brought me some smiles mind you. Three wonderful books all if which I HIGHLY recommend: Naughty Needles Anticraft DomiKNITrix
And I completed this cute project based on the Nyan cat ;)
I've also been kitten sitting for friends. 8week old Penny and Hilts have brought the laughs
On Sunday our coach, the delectable Gutter Snipe, started ticking off our min skills at training. Awesome! At last! Stuff I can (mostly, sort of, sometimes) do!
Not so awesome came after that...I had a rather nasty fall and spent the rest of Sunday and my working day on Monday limping on an exquisitely painful knee.
One trip to the doctor later and I have torn ligaments and am off skates for a couple of weeks.
And off work too.
I miss skating already and I'm BORED!
So lots of crafting has been happening...
First up, my asylum chic shrug...
A pretty victoriana lace and ribbed neck warmer with vintage buttons :
And this sculpty skull cameo brooch
I've also been enjoying my new false lashes...
Roll on healed knee and being back on my feet though! Two days in and I'm going a bit stir crazy at home!
Proof of crazies is this road warrior mask I've just knitted o.O
The fun started on Friday night when the girls picked me up to head to Dublin...this began the first of many games of kit bag tetris to make the bags of four derby loving girls fit into the boot of a not huge car. I blame the kit, we needed everything in the world! Luxury items had been banned.
Our hostel was good and bad. Basic but breakfast was included. Snoring guy in the room, but we retaliated by talking derby crap in the morning when he was sleeping. And cheap as chips which was good!
Saturday morning registration and introductions went smoothly, and so the training sessions began! From running up grassy slopes in my skates to doing jam timer for the scrimmaging (which has given me notions if reffing) the day FLEW in! Afterwards we had a well deserved Chinese
While our gear aired on the hostel balcony
The only downside to the day was being told to bring grippy wheels when the surface wasn't all that skippy in the day. Trixie wisely changed her wheels in Saturday night to a harder set
So many great coaches, my favourites were smarty pants and violent bob...teflon Donna did a great off skates class on Sunday, but her toe stop derby session was too much for me! My feet bled after that one!
Scrimmaging on Sunday rocked, even if I did end up in the penalty box for cutting the track, booooo!
The skating was great, I've learnt so much, and can't wait to get to training on Friday
Derby saved my soul ;) And motto for the day.....? Kill the Jammer ;)
I am one of those irritating people who give in to depression on an almost daily basis. This makes me difficult to know, to be around, and to like.
But there are things that make the meh vanish quickly. Seeing a good friend for a random chat, playing with cats, baking, crafting and skating.
Unfortunately even those things can be tainted. I can feel paranoid about friendships, like I'm not good enough or artistic enough for crafting or that I'll never make it into a team for roller derby as I just can't quite keep up (with learning, not even the speed side of things)
A lovely friend posted this for me to read, it's all about the Meh. Knowing other people feel the same is very comforting. So...skates on and let's have fun. Life doesn't have to be serious, who cares if everyone else does things better? And if all else fails...have a cosy cat nap ;)